I will be 25 this September. I can't believe I am 5 years away from being 30. And I don't think so that I am ready to be 30. Heck! I don't think so that I am ready to be 25 but age doesn't wait for anyone. So does death. But, let's not talk about death - yet.
Let's recap on all the wasted 25 years. Wait! What? Did I just say wasted? I didn't just say that! All my 25 years weren't wasted at all because I don't have regrets. Sure, I did fail here and there but because of all the failures, I am here where I am now. I am now a living proof that I succeed in all the things that I've failed.
Being 24 going to be 25, I feel more responsible. It's not that I didn't feel that before. I did but now - I really do feel it. I a few plans that I made that I must reach before the age of 30. And I promise myself that I must get it done by hook or by crook.
1. To get married by the age of 27 - For this one, maybe not by hook or by crook but yeah, I do feel the damn pressure when most of my friends are married and are getting married. Ever since I was a kid, I felt like for a woman to get married at the age of 27 is ideal enough. But that is not what my mom thinks. She thinks that the ideal age to get married for a woman is 24 onward. Maybe she has a point there but I don't know. If possible, to be honest, I want to get married right now. At this moment I am typing this because I have a guy that I want to spend my entire life with. Mungkin bunyi macam gatal nak kahwin tapi nasib la! Haha! We can't get married yet because both of us are not fully ready. Semua ni kerja Tuhan. Bila da sampai waktu, kahwin la. Sekarang ni, aku dengan dia just kerja and work towards it. InsyaAllah.
2. Own a house - I am planning to invest on a house because it'll be a place for me and my family to live in. Bukan rumah aku dengan Amirrul tapi rumah aku dengan Pok, Umi and adik beradik aku nanti. Kire macam rumah pusaka la. Yeah, that kinda house. Well, my dad has a house in Terengganu but at this moment he's renting it to a family of 7. So he has side income every month. But knowing my dad, moving to Terengganu will be a last resort because well, just don't ask but I know that he won't. The house we are currently living in for the past 12 years is a rental house. So, that is why I want to buy a house so that my whole family will move to the house and all of us will live together. My eldest sister has her own house in Putrajaya so dia boleh duduk sendiri dengan suami and anak-anak dia. And as for my house when I get married later - that is another story that I have to think of. Maybe that one will be under Amirrul's name and I will chip in to pay the bills or what. Yang tu nanti da kahwin pikir la.
3. Finish up my CIDTT - For those of you who didn't know, CIDTT stands for Cambridge International Diploma for Teachers and Trainers. Yes. I am studying at the moment. I know I did mention in my previous entries that I want to finish it up within a year but I can't. So yeah. This is a promise. I will promise my CIDTT before I get married so later when I am married, I won't to think about studies. Hohoho!
4. Get to be a trainer - I trained quite a few times over where I work. I trained new teachers and new admin exect. So, I am kinda getting used to it. I would say that once in every month I will have to train someone. But actually, trainer is my second choice. I want to run a Cambridge center. Have a center on my own and have my own assistant. It'll be a challenge but I will look at it in the eye. I know I can do it, of course. I just need more experience. It's been a straight 4 years now I am with Cambridge. And I know that I can definitely go somewhere from where I am now. There are options if look hard enough. Who knows, I may even be the owner of Cambridge English For Life Sdn. Bhd. one day. Hohohoho!! InsyaAllah. But to be honest, I would rather be a mother of 5 than be a CEO of a company :)
Those 4 are the things that I want to complete before I turn 30. InsyaAllah boleh! Except for the first one. That is because jodoh itu adalah kerja Allah. Saya hanya boleh plan tapi yang approve kan plan saya adalah Dia. So saya hanya boleh berusaha dan bertawakal :)
In life, no matter how many times we fail, it doesn't mean that we are a failure. Keep on trying, keep on praying and InsyaAllah, everything will be paid off.
